A Much Needed Day

Honduras. Day 56.

After morning devo at the fountain area of the mission house, Marc volunteered me to lead a house crew in Zamorano today. So I was already picking out people that I wanted on my crew in my mind. Unfortunately, a bunch of people were going to work on a bridge construction project in Sector Ocho. But it wound up that I had the best house building crew since Hokey Pokey TORCH days anyway.

Lee, Ryan and Janna Beth, Jacob, Daniel Russell, Brian, Lindsey, the Toillion sisters, Sarina, Sean, Eli, and Parker. I don't think I could have asked for a better bunch. We didn't get started until 12:00 noon because the drive was so long to our site, but we finished before 4:00. The house flew together, and it was a simply BEAUTIFUL house at that. And I can't take credit for that. I didn't have to do much "crew leading" today. Everyone just kind of found a job and did it. It was a good day's work.

Afterwards, I saw people passing out stuff to the family for them to have, and Ryan led a prayer with all of them. It was beautiful to see my friends serving others in such a great way. It was refreshing to get a house site that was easy and something we could do and feel like we accomplished something doing. And it was even better just to have fun with a great group of people.

We got back to the mission house and had some amazing food. I showered off and went to devo. I have had a lot of stuff on my mind lately and... frankly, a lot of bitterness towards God, to where being here has become more of a job than anything else... and I just haven't been able to pray or sing at all. But tonight, I was sitting there in devo, and they started singing "I pour out my soul deep within me," and I just started to quietly sing along. Because I realize that God is so much bigger and greater than me, and so my problems and concerns seem huge to me, but He sees the big picture. It was a slow start trying to come back home to Him...

but it's a start.